Life lessons.

I’m beginning to realise something. Something that I knew of in theory, and that I’m now experiencing first hand. I’m realising that, except from good and bad people, there are also amoral people. People who don’t care about something being right or wrong, who don’t see fair and unfair, cruelty or kindness. They only see what’s profitable, what’s the best investment, which move will lead them to the desirable result. They cannot be reasoned with. They cannot be touched or moved or approached. They cannot be fought. They are not inherently good or evil, they simply have no moral compass. They can be kind and cruel in equal measure, they can worship you or crush you down in equal measure not because they feel anything, not driven out of spite or malice or hatred or gentleness or love, but because doing so is just good business. They believe idealism is a vague romantic philosophical concept, not something you can live your life by. They only understand the language of growth, and they will kiss and kill without remorse to achieve it. They will not look back with fear or nostalgia. They will keep going until their heart, a solely functional body part, stops beating.

It’s a very strange thing to interact with them. In my case it’s infuriating, making my insides burn and generates in me a desire to crush them all and fix the injustices they caused. But that’s such a useless way to go about it, trying to fight someone who doesn’t value morals by using your own sense of morality. There’s no point screaming at them “This isn’t fair!” when they wouldn’t even react if you screamed “This is so kind of you!” or if you screamed full stop, for that matter. But there are so many of them out there. So many who don’t, and will never, realise what a despicable way this is to spend your days.